Death is nothing at all

Death is nothing at all
I have only slipped away into the next room
I am I and you are you
Whatever we were to each other
That we are still
Call me by my own familiar name
Speak to me in the easy way you always used
Put no difference into your tone
Wear no forced air of solemnity or sorrow
Laugh as we always laughed
At the little jokes we always enjoyed together
Play, smile, think of me, pray for me
Let my name be ever the household word that it always was
Let it be spoken without effort
Without the ghost of a shadow in it
Life means all that it ever was
There is absolute unbroken continuity
What is death but a negligible accident?
Why should I be out of mind
Because I am out of sight?
I am waiting for you for an interval
Somewhere very near
Just around the corner
All is well.
Nothing is past; nothing is lost
One brief moment and all will be as it was before
How we shall laugh at the trouble of parting when we meet again!

Canon Henry Scott-Holland, Canon of St Paul’s Cathedral (1847 – 1918)

Social Desert

Enter Sandman

Losing & Morphing

Staying in a losing situation to love, death and pain can eat you up from the inside. Walking away from it will eat you up even more. Pick your poison. Timing can be cruel or it can be healing. At all junctions, remember: This too shall pass

I forgot what it’s like to have fun. Don’t know how to have fun on my own and don’t have anyone left to have fun with. Time to morph… again.

Death & Love are synonymous

Death & Love have Pain in common. Letting go has been the hardest thing. Taking a risk and opening up was just as hard. Missing you everyday and all the moments in between.

Idleness is a lost art

To the soul searchers: Mastering the art & science of doing nothing ‘for a while’ will lead to introspection, retrospection and investigative progression of our conscious and unconscious minds.

Not to be mistaken with apathy but a true way of being ‘for a while’ of self discovery, soul searching, mending and reconnecting the links of emotional, mental, physical and spiritual bonds that this world floods with busyness, time, money and self-preservation. Paradoxically, we become busy to not be idle, so we can’t feel and become numb, that requires a certain idle healing, to come full circle to empower us to become busy enablers yet again.

Idle + Fun + Daydreaming = Healing

-R

“I have often wondered whether especially those days when we are forced to remain idle are not precisely the days spent in the most profound activity. Whether our actions themselves, even if they do not take place until later, are nothing more than the last reverberations of a vast movement that occurs within us during idle days.

In any case, it is very important to be idle with confidence, with devotion, possibly even with joy. The days when even our hands do not stir are so exceptionally quiet that it is hardly possible to raise them without hearing a whole lot.”

—Rainer Maria Rilke

Heartbroken

It hurts. Maybe this time that’s a good thing. ‘Nuff Said.

Lost

Here again… broken but alive. Still. Giving up on the heart…. Dad, B, the past lives, Mom – her pain… None of it makes sense. So this job now? What’s it all for in the end?

‘Burned the room’… Going down with the ship now.

I See Fire

Oh, misty eye of the mountain below
Keep careful watch of my brothers’ souls
And should the sky be filled with fire and smoke
Keep watching over Durin’s son

If this is to end in fire
Then we shall all burn together
Watch the flames climb high into the night
Calling out father, stand by and we will
Watch the flames burn auburn on the mountain side

And if we should die tonight
Then we should all die together
Raise a glass of wine for the last time
Calling out father, prepare as we will
Watch the flames burn auburn on the mountain side
Desolation comes upon the sky

Now I see fire, inside the mountain
I see fire, burning the trees
And I see fire, hollowing souls
I see fire, blood in the breeze
And I hope that you’ll remember me

Oh, should my people fall
Then surely I’ll do the same
Confined in mountain halls
We got too close to the flame
Calling out father hold fast and we will
Watch the flames burn auburn on the mountain side
Desolation comes upon the sky

Now I see fire, inside the mountain
I see fire, burning the trees
I see fire, hollowing souls
I see fire, blood in the breeze
And I hope that you’ll remember me

And if the night is burning
I will cover my eyes
For if the dark returns then
My brothers will die
And as the sky’s falling down
It crashed into this lonely town
And with that shadow upon the ground
I hear my people screaming out

Now I see fire, inside the mountain
I see fire, burning the trees
I see fire, hollowing souls
I see fire, blood in the breeze

I see fire, oh you know I saw a city burning (fire)
I see fire, feel the heat upon my skin (fire)
And I see fire (fire)
And I see fire burn auburn on the mountain side

Written, Performed & Produced by: Ed Sheeran for ‘The Hobbit’ motion picture

Divided

Divided about the way I feel about a lot of things and people. Not sure if I want the devil or the angel in me to win at this point.

Divided. Defiant. Angry.

Mastery through failure

Think of it this way: There are two kinds of failure. The first comes from never trying out your ideas because you are afraid, or because you are waiting for the perfect time. This kind of failure you can never learn from, and such timidity will destroy you. The second kind comes from a bold and venturesome spirit. If you fail in this way, the hit that you take to your reputation is greatly outweighed by what you learn. Repeated failure will toughen your spirit and show you with absolute clarity how things must be done. In fact, it is a curse to have everything go right on your first attempt. You will fail to question the element of luck, making you think that you have the golden touch. When you do inevitably fail, it will confuse and demoralize you past the point of learning. In any case, to apprentice as an entrepreneur you must act on your ideas as early as possible, exposing them to the public, a part of you even hoping that you’ll fail. You have everything to gain.

Two kinds of failure
by SHANE PARRISH on OCTOBER 3, 2013
Farnam Street Blog